My everything.

Someone told me i shouldn't take happiness for granted.
& that i have to be thankful for that,

Sometimes when i think.

sometimes when i wonder.

I ask myself.

If i weren't have met you, would i be this crazily in love.

If i weren't have met you, would i be this happy?

If i weren't have met you, would i still have heartache.

Would i even have love someone this much?

Just wanna thank you, for loving me this much.

For even to have noticed me.

For even to love me despite the flaws.

Not to forget, my frens & importantly BLUSh.

Sometimes when i think , if it weren't for them

i wonder,

would i still be the same person i am today.

If it weren't for them, would i be this happy?

If it weren't for them, i wouldn't have someone to laugh with or even gossip about.

If it weren't for them , i wouldn't have someone to tell my lame jokes too.

If it weren't for them, they wouldn't be there to laugh at my lame jokes.

If it weren't for them , they wouldn't be there to laugh at my flaws.

Thanks you guys.

You guys been there with me.

My Everything.

a new beginning ?

2010.

& it doesn't feel like a new year,

atleast i wouldn't have to go school..

but i will have to go poly.

so it means gonna a have a whole new wardrobe of clothes , laptop & maybe a new phone.

haha

so gotta keep earning money!

kinda excitin but scared.

gonna do somethin different, gonna meet different peoples.

but can't wait also.

mustafa

Yesterday, went to mustafa with lax & urmi.

haha. went jus to buy the pani puri.

then we made pani puri at sabina;s house, not to forget that we made wantons also & nasi lemak.

hehe.

god, im gaining weight.

on the day i'm dieting, why is there always food?

god knows.

or maybe im jus unlucky?>

haha.

anyways. we were talkin abt rings.

den lax suddenly said im going jus because of material ?

(jus a little hurt , maybe a little pissed. but what the heck, used to it.)

while i guess if i were to go out for material , i would be wearing diamonds by now not sliver

right.

so couldn't sleep that night.

maybe it was because when i called someone, someone else picked up the phone, or maybe it was lax 's question or maybe it was the stuff we talked about; pregnancy, gossips & guys ?

well it really bothered me.

till not feeling quite right !

listen to wedding dress song all night till 4 plus.

finally , drift off to sleep until i got a nightmare.

my sorrows

nver shared my sorrows & worries.
cause it never helped me in a way or another.
to me, i'm only making other people helpless.
they will jus give u advice/s .
they wouldn't be able get off that saddness, that heavy burden weighin on your shoulders go away.
it's hard.
it's hard sharing sometimes.
i keep it all inside me; my sorrows, my anger .
& then maybe cry it out.
& nobody knows.