December

It's already December. It gonna be a new year in few day times. Life really keeps you busy. Sometimes , you just want to stop and sit down, and watch the world go by. That's the thing , you can only wish. It doesn't really happen that way. Sometimes, I just close my eyes. Breathe in and out, and feel the breeze against your skin. It feels like everything has slowed down. Feels as if that burden has been lifted , even If its for a while - few seconds. Every year has been the same. I wish to make it different for the next year; with a little more confidence and positive thinking.
Merry Christmas everyone. <3

posted from Bloggeroid

Letting go.

This should end tonight. I should stop living in my own fantasy. Truth is bitter. Ain't gonna think about it. I'm jus wasting my time, aint i. It feels like i'm invisible to you. You are looking through me. All those words seems like its a lie now. I 'm foolish, ain't i. Why does it seems like you are trying too much. Mirror Mirror on the wall, tell me the reason for this.

& I Said I Love You, Behind Your Back

If only time had stop time there, that perfect moment. I would have told you, everything. What mattered and what would NOT. I don't want you to know, what i'm feeling or still am. Thoughts i have, being happy just talking to you. & I still want too. Nights after nights, i still do look for your name in my msn. Hoping you would pop up someday. I'm still stuck in that moment, where it was just you & me. If only, that moment comes when i could just look in your eyes and say all the words i ever wanted to say. Maybe things would be much easier? I still do think , & all those little questions bother me day & night. Those words still rings in my ear. Those messages still haunts me in my thought and dreams. & I wish it was once a reality again. Things have been a little harder than usual. I just want to daydream those moments again. Everyday, your words help me get through the day. I can't and hasn't been able to hold any grudges against you.

& I still whisper those words. Behind your back.

Me a nurse

I'm a nurse. & I don't have a passion to be one. The 1st day I entered school, I wanted to graduate as soon as i can. It is a long road. I'm still looking for that something to inspire me, or passion to not to regret being in nursing . This coming Lab practice have to die die pass & go for the next attachment. Have to enjoy attachment since its gonna be 6 weeks straight. So much for failing.

Now things seems different. Hoping that time would fly by slowly. Still have things to do :) Things to enjoy.

Not to mention, got in to foreign bodies in my school. & I'm gonna dance like crazy ~

Thinking big

I thought my eyes were closed. But I'm in a dream awake.
Yeah, i heard enough nonsenses. Not gonna let it get to me. Dammit , I got to do this. & Baby, i know u gonna make it. No matter what they say. Its only getting better. Those weren't the hands that were holding me down. You let go and i fell down hard. Either way, i here. But somehow, i wish i could make everything better. Boy, i just wish you could say something.

Lately, I just been thinking too much.

Your words.

What are words, when you don't mean when you say them? & Only meant for good times.

It's finally weekend. It neva felt like there was, during attachment. Damm, it was like being in hell for the 1st week. Eventually, got used to it slowly. Wasn't that bad at the last week. Big mommas! Watched it today. It was hilarious. So many plans for this holiday, but so little days. Wanna chop my hair off and dye. Feeling sad abt chopping my hair short. Hope all goes well. Not to mention , planning to go out with dipsie and sujan to peirce our ears. Never ending list. Not to mention. Confidence.Thats what i really need. To do the things i really want to do. I really want this. Amen. Sometimes, it's hard to sleep at night. Because u are there, sreaming in my mind. But to tell you the truth, i'm keeping my angel.

Valentine Day

14 feb.

Happy Valentine Day. Atleast i didn;t get to spent it all alone. Went to Marina Barage and had our funs there with sujan and shashi. Though we were quite jealous about girls with their huge bouquet of flowers, we had our single's talk. Night view at marina barage is incredible. The sky , the stars and flying octopus. haha. When i say flying octopus , i mean kites. Well, some do looks like an octopus or jellyfish, goldfish . Hm... baked brownies and it had turned out perfect. Not to mention , from marina to marina barage took taxi with three unknown man. Geez, i was scared. But what the heck , this is singapore. Guresomes attacks doesn;t happen here. Or should i say i'm just lucky. hahas. Anyways, we had macaronis, hotdog and fishballs. deehee. Loves sujan's mum macaroni. Arrived home only about 230 am . Couldn;t find taxi, call also put us on hold for so long . So we decided take a walk. Walked more than 2km when a taxi finally decieds to stop, i guess the taxi driver felt pity for us. Three girls, all alone, in the dark, trying to walk to the city.

Oh yeah , for valentine's i received 2 rings! hehes. From friends.

A day after

I don't wanna say these words to you. I have no courage. You left me speechless. You left me in the most awkward position. I couldn't say anything. Those few words was what all i could say. Somehow, i could see it coming. Those sleepless night. I understood but moving on isn't easy as you say. Just when i had finally hold on to you. Just when i thought no matter what it will be you. You let go. I told myself i wouldn't cry. I don't it to be you, the reason for it. You got me thinking alot. & It hurts; headaches. But still at the end of the day, i shall be here for you. It so hard cause i'm not used to it. Those hands weren't holding me down. It's never again, i will be without.

& I shall just wait for the right moment. Lets just see what life has in store for us.

Random

Man makes heap of mistakes and creates a monster call destiny. Heard it somewhere in one of the episode of criminal minds. hmm..been watching too much of it. :') "I will make this year a better year with no regrets" thats wat i 've been telling myself. Even if can't. I should atleast try,right. As usual, stayed at home all day. No school for this week because of new year. Waking up late enough.& not to forget , two more weeks before the major exam. Shall study for it. hmm.. im starting to have craving. eeeee... there's alrd list of food in the back of my mind. Argh, I'm on diet. sheez. Shall knock out for now. Early in the morning, tuition. then out shopping with my beautfiul ladies. Live your life. Now or never.

Take Me As I Am

&I shall hold onto you.

I will be your hand , Take me as i am.

Take me as i am, cause i'm going.

I was too scared to start, now i;m too scared to let go.

I will hold your hand

Hold My Hand - Akon

Dear love,

I promise I will hold your hand.

& Never let you go.

Nothing can come in between.

So hold on to mine.

& Everything will be better.

We reached so far.

There's no way, I'm gonna give up.

So don't let it go.

You will be the one and only.

I promise.

Be my honeybee.

Love this song , Valentine - by kina grannis. Makes you think of that someone special.

Love,

I wished that you were by my side ,

Today.

On thursday, watched Tron legacy, 300, The tourist & Yamakasi. Its a must watch. Well, everybody have different taste. & Yesterday went out the whole. Mostly walked. Went arcade, spent more than 20 bucks. Got nothing in the end. Off to hospital, today morning. & Of course, as usual , was late. Had vaccination. Luckily, wasn't painful and the nursey was really nice. If only all nurses was like that. Some are quite rude and moody. Afte that rushed to school. Not really rushed, but strolled. Duty for open house - Career Advisor. Shit, shouldn't have gone school. Wasted my damm time. Sat in a room the whole 5 hrs, did nothing. Oh well, atleast free mac coupon. Hmm.. next week, will be even more hectic.- exam and presentation on the same day. Hope everything goes well. Been trying to make this new year a better year than last year. Wanna leave no regrets.

We should appreciate as each day comes.

My New Year Resolution.

- Live each day like today's the last.

- Be active no matter how much i've slept late last night.

- Spend LESS. Especially , cut down on shoppings!

- & & & Lose down horizontally!

- The last of all, always be happy.

( It's been long that i had such a good laugh. )